OK so The Biggest Loser is a little off topic here but not really cause I'm trying to be the biggest loser myself. Those of you that know me know that I've been a faithful watcher of The Biggest Loser since almost the beginning. I love the show, love what it stands for, love the results. I've even been known to do interviews past contestants on the show.
On last night's show which I watched this morning, I felt conflicted. They had a contest where the winner would win $5,000. That part I think is great. What I'm having a problem with is that the contest was eating and searching through mounds and pounds of dough-nuts! I don't know why that contest affected me more than any of the other contests but it felt repulsive to me.
I know why I was conflicted because yesterday I had a rough day myself with my weight loss journey (sounds better than diet). And I realize that just that one moment decision to do something or not do something is the difference between hundreds of calories, fat etc. Now it is my job to taste everything that comes out of my kitchen while I am there. There is no way around that. Except all I need to do is taste, one spoon at a time. But yesterday I walked in the morning and found myself starving. The choices we had for lunch weren't very good, at least not to me. They were fried fish or Italian sausage and peppers. I should of tried the sausage and instead I ate two crab cakes with tarter sauce. Then we had a meeting that I needed cookies for, so I made macadamia nut cookies, had to try one. So basically yesterday I ate everything fried, or sugary, or fatty except for an orange. I got on the scale this morning and I luckily didn't gain any weight. So basically my problem is that I make bad choices. Now I can understand the days that I go out to eat, I'm just not going to stop that completely. But all the other days I have to get better.
So that's why I was conflicted last night because I know what it is like to make the split second decision. I was, and continue to be impressed with Kae. She is just a powerhouse and won't make bad decisions. While I'm talking about this, I have to say that I'm glad that Amy is gone. I felt like she deserved it for turning her back on Kim. She seemed to not be honest and faithful.
All right I'm off to exercise and go to work! It's a new day! Bye for now.